Trying times

OK, so life is a bowl of "issues" everyday, but recently Satan has been on the prowl in the Farley house. He is rearing his ugly head at every turn. Maybe because I am off on medical leave, maybe because Emerald is gone to college, maybe because.....oh I don't know, maybe because I am human, I have been more easily convinced that Satan wants to condemn all I say and do. *sigh* I know that this is not what God wants for us, He wants us to be victorious!! I am just truly struggling these days to keep treading water and keep my head above to keep from feeling like I am drowning. I continue to leave on Jesus' loving arms and rebuke Satan's attacks, but would truly appreciate any and all prayers for us right now.

Been a while..

I have not fallen off the face of the earth, contrary to popular belief!!! lol Life is keeping me busy, in one form or another. Since August we have: moved Emerald to college, moved to a new home, continue to homeschool the other three kids, I worked and worked some more. Last week I had surgery and am trying to adjust to this thing called.....resting. lol I never knew what just rest meant. It is a hard thing for someone who is used to working all the time to do. lol I am learning slowly though, I have about enough energy for one outing a day( church, doctor's appt, picking up my paycheck stub) then I am shot. *Never* in my life did I think that this would be an issue for me. Praising God for the wonders he does for and through me on a daily basis. This has been a reminder that through God ALL things are possible.

While I am learning this rest thing, I am soooooo enjoying being around my babies who are home. I have helped with their school work, at their request, daily. I truly feel blessed to be in a position to have them home with me(sure do miss Em though.) They are some of the best medicine a mama could ask for during the recovery phase after surgery!!! William is amazing too, always has been for nearing in on TWENTY years!!! He is almost like the mother hen. lol

Friends and family have kept the food coming, so we are not starving(not that that was ever a fear around our house) and feel blessed and loved like never before. We love all of you very much!!!! Until next time........

A new day

Today I will be heading to the hospital for surgery. Please pray for God's guidance and direction for the doctors today!!!

August 13, 2010

Amongst many things, Noah's birthday party tonight, eye doctor appt times six this morning, arriving at the DMV only to find out I am now required to present my birth certificate to renew my driver's license, I am turning another year older today, Friday the 13th of August. lol While many people shy away from celebrating and rejoicing in another year here, I count it a blessing to celebrate another year. I was not alwys so upbeat about birthdays, but in 2001 I lost my dear uncle to staph infection after a successful stem cell transplant for multiple myeloma, Uncle Roger only got 46 burthdays. Ever since then, I count it a blessing to be blessed with yet another birthday. Thank you Lord for letting me celebrate another year with my family, to love on my kids, husband and anyone who comes my way. While life is nothing short of chaotic 99% of the time, I am blessed beyond measure and praise God daily for holding my hand through this journey here on earth. I praise him for carrying me when I feel I can not go another step, HE is there picking me up, dusting me off and loving on me like no other. Thank you Lord for blessing me more than I deserve. Most of all thank you for loving me even though I am far from perfect and fail You daily. I am truly blessed beyond any measure my pea brain could fathom!!!!

Randon thoughts...

While I don't fancy myself a bible scholar nor an eloquent writer, I feel led to share some thoughts tonight. While I have been having some issues lately, simple health issues, while I was out mowing tonight I felt God speak to my heart. I have been having a pity party, of sorts, while I muddle through these issues. Feeling sorry for myself, because I am on antibiotics *again*, because I feel like I am working all the time and going nowhere fast at my job, because I am preparing to send Emerald to college next month, because I struggle dealing with Nathaniel and his Asperger Syndrome, because Noah inadvertently makes me feel bad because he never sees me, because Rebekkah makes me feel unappreciated and because I feel I let William down since I seem to be too busy to do the "wife and mother" things I NEED to be doing at home. OK, I realize that was a huge run on sentence but you get my drift, I am feeling sorry for myself. Tonight as I was mowing though God spoke to me and showed me a few things, gave me some things to think about during my "me" time behind the mower.

So, here goes.....while I am dealing with many, many things right now. While I feel like my plate is full to overflowing and more keeps getting heaped on. I am NOT watching in a hospital as my child struggles for their very life, after undergoing a major medical "experimental treatment" for a health issue, I am blessed to have my children all living here under my roof (until Emerald leaves for college next month), I am blessed to have a loving husband still with me after nearly TWENTY years, I am not jobless nor homeless nor starving. He reminded me that no matter how "rough" things may get it is He who is carrying me through, I am not doing this on my own, I am no where near capable of doing this job alone, I need HIM to get me through. When I feel like life is more than I can bear, when I feel like screaming and crying, when I feel like having a pity party for myself, that I am blessed beyond measure. That He allows me to struggle through and it is He who gives me the strength to make it through every day. He is watching me to see my response to the things that come my way, am I going to run away from Him or *to* Him?? While it seems like the "duh factor" should take over, it is ultimately a choice, my choice, to lean on Him. To let Him carry my through each day.

Congratulations if you made it this far in my rambling. I truly have been remiss in keeping this blog updated. I am working lots of hours, doing lots of massages, getting paperwork stuff together for Emerald to head to college in August but all excuses aside I promise to try and keep updates coming in a timely fashion.

Praising God through the good times and the bad. Thanking Him for opening the eyes of my heart and my mind tonight, reminding me that He is in control of every moment of my life!!!

Michelle

Alive and kicking..

We are alive and kicking in KC. Been way too long since I posted but life is incredibly crazy and busy for us. Getting Emerald ready for college, how did *that* happen, she was just a baby wasn't she??? The rest of us are busy doing many things too. God is good to us and we are praising him for all we are blessed with every day!!! Will post more updated pics soon.

Michelle

Thanksgiving and other random thoughts

Well, we survived Thanksgiving, sans William, but were blessed beyond measure. It was a rough beginning to the week, William flew out Sunday morning to Texas. His Granny passed away last Saturday and he flew down for the funeral and spent Thanksgiving with his parents, brother, sister in law, and niece(the nephews were unable to make it) He enjoyed himself, for which I am very grateful. While we we realllly missed him here in KC, we were also very happy he had the chance to be with his family this Thanksgiving.

I, personally, had a rough and emotional week. Many thigns contributed to this but am now on an even keel and rolling along nicely. lol While the kids were home alone, man do I *ever* appreciate that William is home normally, and I was working things were very interesting around our home. The kids argued(nothing new) and I called to check and be sure there was no bloodshed. I was home in the evenings and listened to more arguing and tattling(do they *ever* outgrow this????!!!!!) We ate whatever we could find for dinners, layed around and then repeated the same thing the next day.

Wednesday evening Emerald made SIX pies for Thanksgiving at my mom's house. I thought six pies was excessive, being as there were only gonna be 12 people there but mom/grandma asked for six pies. Well, surprise!!!!! There were 18 of us there......my sister and her family drove up from Texas to spend Thanksgiving in KC!!!! We were all surprised and very excited, we had not seen them since last December. So we spent Thursday at mom's with family and she and her family spent yesterday with her hubby's family. My parents are divorced and mom has been married to David for 19 year, he has three children from his first marriage too. For the the first time in......FOREVER, all five adult children were present and accounted for. We also had all eleven grandkids together. I got some photos, still in my camera, and will post soon.

Yesterday, the kids and I surprised William and picked him up from the airport!!! When he left things were up in the air as to who would pick him up. I simply told him to look for a familiar face. The look on his face was priceless when he saw not one but five familiar faces yesterday afternoon. He said "Ya'll aren't supposed to be here" lol I told the kids we may as well leave then. William was having none of that and happily followed us to the van and came home.

Emerald has begun watching my two year old nephew every other weekend, or so, and we dropped her off. Sounds stupid, but I truly miss her. lol I know, I know, she is 17 and not my *baby* but I miss having her home. She is maturing and spreading her wings, for which I am grateful, but man it is hard on the mama when they grow up. LOL

OK, enough rambling from KC. Off to clean house, please don't be jealous, and enjoy what sounds to be a FANTASTIC late November day here in KC.